Monday, September 29, 2008

Fuzuli - Leyla & Mecnun

Fuzuli, poet of the inconceivable verses...
He is reminding me of quill pens, where this great pen was creating crystalline stiches of abyss deepness. Furthermore his art (of Divan epoch) was doubled, triplicated as he wrote in Persian and Arabic besides ottoman (=Turkish). The world-wide known book of him, Divan is a compilation of poems and such a bedside book to be read a life-time.

Lemme copy here down a gazel from him. This one asnishes me each time I read with the language usage, with the sufistic feeling and passion of -any kind'a- love in it.


yâ rab belâ-yı aşk ile kıl âşinâ beni,
bir dem belâ-yı aşktan etme cüdâ beni,

az eyleme inayetini ehli derdden
yani ki çok belalara kıl mübtela beni

oldukça ben götürme beladan iradetim
ben isterim belayı çü ister bela beni

gittikçe hüsnün eyle ziyade nigarımın
geldikçe derdine beter et muptela beni

eyle zaîf kıl tenimi fürkatinde kim
vaslına mümkin ola yetirmek sabâ beni

nahvet kılıp nasib fuzuli gibi bana
ya rab mukayyed eyleme mutlak bana beni

Thursday, September 18, 2008

schicksal! :'(

this time no need to scream...this time quiet. feeling so helpless as if i'm in the middle of a icy ocean, on a piece of wood.
shitty life making new traps for me. taking aunty away, uncle to the hospital injuring mom and me...never asking why cuz thats just life and i'll do best by being patient.
god help us.

Friday, September 12, 2008

need to scream

yeah bored to death, lotta to do deadlines to meet but Im sleepless, tired, hungry...need to scream. thnx god I've my own space to scream
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh
yeah feel somehow better so.
dert de bende derman da...

hem objeyiz alemde hem aynayız biz
içtik ebedin camını sarhoş gibiyiz
derman arasak da şifayız merhemiz
hem bengisuyuz cihanda, hem sakiyiz

*m.c.r*